Day 4

Today's been kind of weird. It's like a rollercoaster of feelings. I think I'm starting to feel the side effects of not having caffeine. I feel a bit sad today because I have a fear of losing all the people I care about around me. I had a really good friend who left me once out of the blue. It forever scarred me I think. Always feeling like I need to reach out, always feeling like I have to hang out or I'll lose my friends. It's crazy but it's kind of how I'm feeling right now. All my friends are dancers, I have a couple of friends that aren't. But I feel like if I don't reach out or communicate with them, they go away with their life. 

I still think about that friend all the time. But it is what it is. I need to get back to being ok with people leave my life or stay in my life. That's just life. Who knew quitting coffee would get you all crazy. Hahahaha. I also feel scattered brain today.