So I took a workshop on self-care. One of the things they talked about was keeping some sort of journal to keep talk of how you are feeling. I guess its suppose to somehow help you mentally. So here we go, this is my beginning post. I don't really know if anyone will read this, but my goal is to post every morning when I come into work to note how I am feeling and what I think I need for the rest of the day. This will happen on weekdays because I ain't got time for a weekend writing with all the dancing I do.Here is how I am feeling: I woke up today wondering, hmm how did I get here? Have you ever asked yourself what happened? What is life? I have a bittersweet feeling this morning as I sit on my toilet just letting the time go by as I watch youtube. I think I need that time each morning to wake myself up and get into gear. I've been wanting to dance in the morning every morning to get awake. But I didn't this morning because I don't know I just didn't. I had the urge to, my garage was clear of cars, I just didn't. Might be because I danced yesterday night.
But I don't know. I'm kind of upset at myself for not dancing this morning. Anyway, I come into work wondering how I got where I am. My life decisions, everything just feels like a routine right now. Same people every day at work. Doing the same thing when I get home. I think my brain is telling me I need a change. Maybe I should get back into drawing for me. My wife and I got to paint on our wedding anniversary and I catch myself looking at that painting I did every morning. Anyhow, that's how I am feeling. Let's see if I keep up with this.
